Stillness

I´ve got a feeling of safety. I am so carefull not to miss this connection with this sensual feeling of being safe. I´m having this connection under my observation and control. I have to be careful. I have to be gentle.

I freeze this feeling. I keep myself here with this connection. There is no need to be anywhere else, but filling up with all the secure and warmth of being.

It´s a stillness. I breath deeply. I sense how my body is becoming stronger and mind clearer. I am a part of this stillness. It feels good.

There is no need for anything else right now.

This is what I need to become strong again. When I am strong enough I would be ready for diving deeper. I would dive deeper looking for those stucked in the labyrints of my mind the deepiest fears. Those fears are like a wariors. They are always ready to attack.

Being in this stillness of safety would fill me up with the energy to react back, when those wariors would attack me. I would not attack them back.

I would make love with them by being ready to accept them what they are; by being opened to them; by being present to them with all my senses; by being ready to keep them warm and safe. Making love with them would melt their habit of attacking me. We would become closer.