So frightening

I draw following my hand and its motion. My drawing looks different with a new earlier unknown me style. I don't feel comfortable to see the result. It frights me.

There is death behind me holding a knife in his hand. The death stays just behind me.

In the end of drawing I try to correct it and draw smile on the devils face. I also drow wings on his back as he would be an angel.

It doesn't help situation. Smile and wings doesn't make an angel from devil.

I follow my will and take a break. I breath deeply. I try to relax.

I change a page in my notebook and start to draw again.

There is a death standing in an awkward pose. It's just behind me. There is an image of me with a scared face looking back.