So frightening

I draw following my hand and its motion. My drawing looks different with a new earlier unknown me style. I don't feel comfortable to see the result. It frights me.

There is death behind me holding a knife in his hand. The death stays just behind me.

In the end of drawing I try to correct it and draw smile on the devils face. I also drow wings on his back as he would be an angel.

It doesn't help situation. Smile and wings doesn't make an angel from devil.

I follow my will and take a break. I breath deeply. I try to relax.

I change a page in my notebook and start to draw again.

There is a death standing in an awkward pose. It's just behind me. There is an image of me with a scared face looking back.

Full of sadness

Concentrating on my feelings and fears brought me to the Kingdom of Sadness.

This place looks like Grey Palace with Steam, Dark Furniture and No Light. It´s a very grey place with wet floors and dark windows, where light can not get through.

I feel the deepest fears to come out arounding me in this darkness. These fears and sadness taking over me. I can not feel the life happening around me here, in this Kingdom. I can not feel anything else, but sadness.

I am stucked in here..