Yes. This has happened.
My biggest fear has found me from the passing me through people. I was too relaxed.
I was used in the middle of my happiness. Random person treated me the way I do not let anyone treat me. And I let him do it for too long time, becouse I was not ready to fight.
I feel dirty. I feel full of chips and chocolate.
While I was smashing that sweet shit of cake into my mouth I was crying, becouse I knew something has happened. I pushed the last peace of that shit into my mouth and just at the right time there were little garden just infront of me.
I brought myself there. I pushed myself to that bench close to the bushes. I forsed myself to think.
What was that? What hurted me so much that I had to punish myself the way I did it earlier in my life?
It was my biggest fear. I was treated the way I do not want to be treated.
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Cry baby. I love you. There is nothing to worry about. You are ok. No one can hurt you.
This beaty is crying and feeling sick. I will take her to the most beautiful restaurant. I will buy the healthiest cup of tea for her. Becouse I love her.
