Fear of mine (The deepest one)

Being treated the way I do not want to be treated.

By expressing myself in a different ways; by behaving naturally; by being myself there is always a chance to be interpretated wrong (the way I do not want to be interpretated).

The explanation for being interpretated wrong could have many reasons: personal experience, prejudices, fears etc. The interpretation of anything around us the way people see it is a right of everyone. Anyone has a right to see things the way they are able to see. And it wouldn`t be wise trying to change someones way of interaction with the world.



So, for this particular fear of mine there is a way to deal with it:

I remember who I am.
I remember what are my values.
I remember that I have a right to be myself.
I remember to be responsible for the things I am doing.



Safety plan, in case I am not able to handle this fear is:

Take a break and get lost in nature.

Challenge: involving in community

One more night and I would put myself into community. They live their lifes the way they choosed to live. And that is a space for them to be together.

I recognize myself in the same way of their living. I see myself as I could learn a lot from them and get the best from that.

The conflict in here is that this is something new for me. And I see myself as a part of it. But I am not sure if I would be accepted and feel welcomed.

Tomorrow I am going to wake up. Prepare myself for the new day. I am going to get some nice walk through the park. And I am going to be as a part of this community as long as I feel to.

Parks submitting

I ran on the empty streets of the sleepy town. I looked at the empty roads. I crossed them and ran further. In about an ages I arrived to the Park.

I ran inside the Park. It is a huge one. I ran it cross over. I ran and looked at the people´s eyes. They smiled to me and greeted me. I smiled them back and greeted them too.

I continued my running. And I continued to look at their eyes. The way I had ran became longer and longer.

I stopped to smell this Park, what was all over around me. I was drown into this beauty. I was getting full of the smells and sounds of it.

I ran further and further. I was sweaty and my energy of love was spreading to the Park´s properties. I was submitting this beauty by loving it. And people did accept it. (I saw it from their eyes;)