Sleeping is a scary thing to do

Night was full of absurd frightening episodes.

I was in the darkness kingdom.

Kingdom's residents made fun on me with their jokes.

But I did woke up.

Running

I run the roads in the early morning. Do people run in here? Is it normal to run in here? Why people watch me?

I love running in new places. I want to run in here.

I see the gym and feel relieved. Yes, they do sport in here. So, I can do it too..

But why they do not run?

Suspiciouse

Everything around me seems to be so suspiciouse. People are so suspiciouse in here. Places are so different in here and so suspiciouse.

Actually I am suspiciouse. They look at me and they know I am different. Why I wouldn´t be? Today I wasn't able to put my leather pants, even though I did want to wear them. Just not ready to get any more attention I already get. Not ready yet.

Inner conversation inside my head just so continuous. I know what I want. I see where I want to go. I know where I want to be. But there is a fear of being treated the way I do not want to be treated. So it is easier to leave something, than face it with all my confidence and power.

I do not want to be suspiciouse.